The Big Monty.

This photograph depicts a perfect memory for you

Honestly I couldn’t disagree with what you do.

I’m fighting off these demons that control my destiny

Fighting off the love I thought you might’ve had for me.

Just so you can see, I haven’t changed so drastically.

I’m still the same guy who claimed to hate you sarcastically.

I see your number in my phone and resist the urge to call

When I lay in bed at night, our past just climbs right up the walls.

Your happiness is all I want but it’s all I’ve ever feared

Because your happiness includes a world that I’m not welcome near.

It’s harder every year. Every tear. Every beer.

Thought that if I changed perspective things would become clear.

Three years ago I never would’ve pictured life like this,

Staring to the driveway and its your car that I miss.

You’ll never read my love for you, you’ll never understand

I would’ve movedĀ  the mountains just to make you a happy man.